Four years ago, I did a powerful Death Lodge process in Death Valley. During this experience, I was visited by Raven Man. He entered my consciousness, flying circles above me, cawing: “Jenni, that which you want, you are not ready for. You are not vibrating at the frequency that will attract the energy you want. You are not ready.”
“What do you mean I’m not ready? I’m spiritual. I teach workshops. Of course I’m ready.” But I knew Raven Man was right. I knew what my inner landscape was like. I knew the words I called myself, and how I limited possibilities in my thoughts and inner dialogue. I was not vibrating at the frequency of that which I wanted, and so my relationship with Raven Man began.
I took this medicine download and worked it rather diligently into my life. Over the course of a year and a half, I worked it down into my third eye chakra, witnessing patterns of thinking and imagining that were restrictive to my expansiveness. I channeled the medicine down into my throat chakra and worked the medicine into my inner dialogue, shifting the resonant vibration of my inner landscape.
When I brought the medicine down into my Heart Chakra, I was once again visited by Raven Man, this time in the form of a lucid dream experience in San Diego. In the dream, I was walking along a strip mall, and looked to my left inside the shop, and through the plate glass window, I saw Raven Man. This time he was not in the form of a bird, but in the form of a man. Our eyes locked. The power of the moment, and the gravity of our connection spooked me so much, I ran along the black asphalt of the parking lot and jumped into a frozen lake. Piercing the layer of thin ice, I plunged into the ice cold water, numbing myself. Raven Man came out of the store, pulled me from the frozen lake and cradled me in his arms, tending me back to warmth and life. I open my eyes, and he walked away. I was still not ready.
Oh my goodness! I’m still not ready! I have been working this for almost 2 years! Are you serious! But I was committed, and I worked this energy down into my solar plexus, aligning my actions and intentions with the power of my highest frequencies. And in this process, I was once again in conversation with Raven Man, and his message was crystal clear: “You are not going to meet me in San Diego. You will not see butterflies in the arctic. You need to move to the ecology of my species.” And it was this conversation with Raven Man that planted the seed for my move to Colorado.
When I moved to Denver a year and a half ago, I was instantly immersed in a community that showed me a whole new definition of the masculine. I found myself surrounded by men, yummy juicy men, that were loving fathers, attentive lovers and joyful friends. These men owned their masculine energy and also honored the feminine in sacred ways. What a paradigm shift this was for me! Having the sacred space of Rhythm Sanctuary available to me every week to dance these new embodiments into being really helped me bring raven energy into my sacral chakra.
Then winter came, my first one in Denver. I got consumed with living in snow and basement clearing that I forgot all about Raven Man. That is, up until now. I recently bumped into a man soul on my life journey, and was so activated by him, that I was reignited with Raven Man. This time, he was standing in front of me, in flesh form, and I was not running into the frozen lake to numb myself. Raven Man energy had found its way into my Root chakra, into manifest form. Powerful stuff!
To honor the 4 year adventure I have taken with Raven Man, I recently went on a powerful medicine journey. In this experience I revisited, in detail, the download of the Divine Masculine, entering my Crown chakra, and working me, over the years, piercing each chakra along the way. In this remembrance, I came to understand that I was Raven all along. This god force that has been working me, the mystery that has been penetrating and shifting my consciousness, is not external to me. Raven Man was my own masculine energy, fathering me, mentoring me, and evolving me. In this revelation, I was able to merge with Raven energy and claim this as my new name.
I am Raven Shree, soaring through the cosmos. Flying through the pixie dust of stars, embodying the mystery in deep and delirious ways. I am Raven Shree, stepping into the mytho-poetic expression of my eco-identity. I am Raven Shree and I claim the power of the divine mystery that flows through me.
